Final Bachelor Examination 2014.

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

All praise to Allah, the Supreme Ruler of the world, and Salawah upon The Last Prophet Muhammad PBUH.

I must say, confidence and tawakkal are two different concepts. Confidence is a state of where somebody is being certain that his action or words is the best or most effective. Tawakkal on the other hand, putting the confidence in God's decision, after pushing the effort to our best capabilities, believing that He will give the best result which suits us. 

Honestly speaking, in the mist of exam period, most of the time I don't have the confidence in answering the brutally horrifying question, however, I've put my tawakkal and pray to Allah, and always believe in Him would be my first priority after every paper. I'm not really good in reading and memorizing hundreds of lecture slides, like my high school biology test, mostly it didn't go well, and this exam, I've got laws and ethics, sustainability and engineering's principle to be bombed into this piece of brain of mine. 

But alhamdulillah, I'm doing my best and I know He will help me.

i need prayer and your encouragement. not pressure. thanks.

most of the time answering my paper. :(

Illaliqa'. Wassalam.

Grace Which We Forgot

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds, 

and Peace and Prayer upon the Final Prophet and Messenger, Muhammad PBUH.

('Abdullah Yusuf 'Ali)

In the midst of busy, distracted by assignments, pressure by projects,

We will be appreciate towards the things God gave us once or multiple times before,

The grace of leisure, free time.

We used to have all those times, but only few of us fully grasp the essence of times,
Exploit the times to the fullest, utilized it for utmost advantage, do things we really need to do,
Yet most people end up wasting it, just fooling around with it.

Certain people maybe need the times for several different purposes,
Resting, relaxing and perhaps studying for final, probably watching korean drama,
And if we asked ourselves, how much have we spare the leisure times for the sake of Allah?
Ouch, ouch and ouch.

For the moment, I really need the times to study,
Projects have taken quite the damage towards my leisure times,
And now, alhamdulillah, studying for finals is a bit fruitful,
Just a bit, it was nowhere near to the blossom of a big tree,
But I'm getting there, hopefully still got time for finals in april,
Insya-Allah, first class,
Pray for me and you and everyone, pretty please. :)

The one who said is nearer to the one who hear.

Good luck everyone sitting exams and exam-to-be,
All is well, May Allah be with you.
All the best to your medical exams. :D

thanks for your prayer in advance. jyeah!

The knowledge we earned up till now supposedly made us more humble to God and human being, despite whatever background you do possessed.

stop procastinating and start doing something.

Illaliqa'. Wassalam alaikum.

Fear and Pain

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

All praise to Allah, the Supreme Ruler of the world, and salawah upon Prophet Muhammad PBUH.

Today, i went to undergo an operation, not that kind of surgery but with the used of CT Scan Machine. As early as 8 am, i already sat, waiting for my turn to be called by the doctors. After an hour or so, the doctor told me that there was supposed no CT scan operation to be done today, and the patients were told in advance, supposedly. My mom and i confused as we never received any call to postpone the appointment. I was in despair and discouraged, as I took 16 tablets of Prednisolone prior to the operation, due to the instructions of the doctor. After a few discussions, the operation was proceed. Alhamdulillah.

I was called to a corner when suddenly, without my acknowledgement, the doctor prepared a needle and syringe. To be honest, i am really weak with those tool in function with penetrating your precious skin with 'slight' pain. In my heart, i monologue, "Oh no, doctor, i'm not signed up for this. T_T". I tried to endure the pain although the feeling never went out and i felt numb and nausea. Yeah, i have a bit of trypanophobia. You can google it.

this is exactly how i reacted when i knew the injection is a part of the procedure. T_T

As i laid down upon the machine, the doctor said, "ok, i will pump in fluid, it's a little bit sting and pain, please endure it." I closed my eye, and then the feeling came. It felt like my hand was burning, from inside and about to burst. I tried to shut my mouth out, and again i monologue, "I'm not signed up for this." Funny isn't it. Afterwards, i never ceased to recite the surah i remember, and force me to divert out my attention from the searing pain. As the operation was done, i saw my clothe soaked in blood, I felt numb and about to puke, as i was prohibited to take any single meal after my last dinner, which was about 12 hours ago before the appointment.

oh no, not again...

To be straight up frank, although its been about 11 hours or so, the pain in my left arm never ceased to stop. I hardly move the hand due to the bad sensational and force to do light works only. Like typing. I know, this pain is from Allah, and He knows that i can't withstand it so that He front out the feeling to make me closer to Him. Like the song, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. 

Today, i noticed that, while in fear we tend to shift for help, begging for strength to become strong, and to reduce the hardness that we are facing. Most people turn to their God and ask for something they usually hoping, in time of desperate. As a muslim, I am lucky to know that Allah always with me and give me pain, fear and test to make me a better muslim and mukmin. Sometimes, Allah gave us catastrophe, to make us realize that He is there for us, and love to hear His humble servant, beg for forgiveness, unlimited strength and plead with undivided compliment. He is very sweet because He never did set anything beyond our power and there are always blessing in disguise which us human being tend to forget and never noticed. All we do are nagging and blame the destiny.

"Be sure We shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere. Who say, when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah we belong, and to Him is our return." They are those on whom (descend) blessings from Allah, and Mercy, and they are the ones that receive guidance." (al-Baqarah: 155-157)

alhamdulillah, the pain and fear is always the sign of love from Allah, so that we never be so contented in life and never forget Him. :)

and this is what i've been waiting for, and alhamdulillah, all praise to Allah for granted me my doa. :)

Illaliqa'. Waalaikumussalam.

Final Last Call

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,
All praise to Him, the Splendid Ruler of the world, and salawat to Prophet Muhammad (PBUH).

Here I am to confess to the bottom of my heart if I have ever hurt anyone either directly or indirectly, and those who are reading this post, I'm sorry. Tomorrow I will start answering my first final examination paper, and this will continues until next wednesday. Do pray for me guys.

 habis kering dakwat eden, nak highlight semua yg penting... :P

I may sound like over reacted, it's just an exam bro, no big deal lah. However, this exam is my ticket to further my second year. Where? Insya-Allah I will update later, I don't want to spoil this harmoniously humbleness, because we can plan, but Allah is the Master of Planner. If I were planned to stay, I will accept it whole-heartedly ya Allah. :)

 

"Honestly ya Allah, I've done everything in my power to prepare for this exam. Obviously I am not perfect and not a very good servant but all I did was to become a better person than yesterday. Please do accept my prayer ya Allah. I believe in Your revelation, and I never worshiped any other than You, and I believe in Your Prophet, so please be with me for this exams ya Allah, for I want to succeed that badly. I know I have stained my iman ya Allah, but please don't put myself in fear, make me calm, cleanse my heart away from those negative influences so I can answer this final with triumph and success, so that I can bring forward Islam to glory, like how Abu Ubaidah, who widen the Islamic territory, introducing the beautiful of Islam. Make me strong like him ya Allah. And I know you won't burden me. Masya-Allah. ;)"

"And ya Allah, I know this study is a way of jihad for the sake of ummah, make me one who excels in this path. I want to make a mark in this world of yours, and of course, I really want to be with you in the hereafter. Subhanallah. :)"

pray for me guys...

 It's been quite a while since my last post. Yeah, indeed this unforgivable act is untolerable, surely due to my pack, unfinished business, full with assignment, paperwork, journal and other sort of academic materials. There was a week, where I didn't find a proper time to sit and relax, just 3,4 hours of night rest because of this bountiful works.

Somehow I do miss Majestic Legacy that much, it's just that I won't meet them twice, irreplaceable. This feeling, remind me of the pass, and made me post those best moment of my high school in the Majestic Legacy's blog. Makes me want to cry. I miss them a lot. ;)

 true... :)

 efforts is the stairs to success... :)

"O Allah, I leave my affairs today and the day after, in Your absolute decision, I listen, I obey, for You are my best companion. :')"

Every success must be accompanied by thankfulness to Allah. Wassalam. Illaliqa'