Graduation 2015

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

All praise to Him, the Ruler of the world, and Salawah upon His Messenger, Prophet Muhammad PBUH.

After 3 years abroad, I finally get to see the end of my study. Hardship, sweat, knowledge, battling with software, reference-hunting, library visiting, lack of sleep, chasing the lecturers, comprehending something new, ran away from someone disturbing and annoying, cursing and crying, shouting and many more. These years had given me a lot of bitter sweet experience which I trade nothing for it. It just priceless.

Alhamdulillah for giving me the chance.

Within this time frame as well I learnt a lot of things. Be kind to everyone, trust a few, appreciate moments and those willing to spend time with you, friendship, laughter, be forgiving, seeking good in people, smile a lot, giving positive vibe, seeing the world in whole new perspectives, connect with far away family and friends, finding true meaning of life and many more. I wish I can share the list but it is way too long. 

Alhamdulillah for giving me the chance to study abroad.

I had my family who always behind my back. My few circles and flatmates willing to share few chats and coffee. I always appreciate companion of others, I don't ask money or materials, just sitting time together and talk and laugh.

I got to travel with many great people. We explored various places and made our way to destinations. Sometimes, I went by myself and met a lot of other travellers. I enjoyed meeting new people and having known different things from various places. This is what I treasured the most.

Alhamdulilah for the great companions.

And here is my graduation pictures. Thank you to everyone who has accompanied me along the tough way. And I have farewell video I made as a memoir of my 3 years abroad. Have a watch, thank you. :)

This is a goodbye to my great years in UK. I felt a bit lonely and sad. And now is the time for job-hunting. Wish me the best guys. :)

"Oo Allah, thank you for all the moments You had me living. Alhamdulillah. I'm very grateful for all You've bestowed upon and I pray to You for the best in my future endeavor. Please take care of the people I've met along this life and I am humbly request You to let me see them again."

Illaliqa'. Wassalam.

In the midst of busy.

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

All praise to Him, the Ruler of this world, and salawah upon Beloved Last Messenger, Prophet Muhammad PBUH.

Sometimes, in the midst of busy-ness, we forget the time to properly thank Him for His blessing in this life. We tend to focus on the worldly task, and put aside the deeds that make Him more pleases with us.

I have so many assignments. Submission almost every week, there is nowhere to breath. I got to cancel so many outdoor activities, be it squash or my passion travelling, to focus on my final year project and assignments.

Well, in all the time constraint, I do get a few times to rest, sleep and eating (eating has been the least priority at this moment). I need to say alhamdulillah more often instead of complaining why the school put so much burden on us or how my life has been ruined by engineering.

The more I pray to Him, the more He helped me, in His extraordinary unpredictable ways. May I haven't stray away from His path.

"All difficulties will come eases."

Illaliqa'. Wassalam. :)

Another 5 months left. Pray for me please. :D

Final Bachelor Examination 2014.

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

All praise to Allah, the Supreme Ruler of the world, and Salawah upon The Last Prophet Muhammad PBUH.

I must say, confidence and tawakkal are two different concepts. Confidence is a state of where somebody is being certain that his action or words is the best or most effective. Tawakkal on the other hand, putting the confidence in God's decision, after pushing the effort to our best capabilities, believing that He will give the best result which suits us. 

Honestly speaking, in the mist of exam period, most of the time I don't have the confidence in answering the brutally horrifying question, however, I've put my tawakkal and pray to Allah, and always believe in Him would be my first priority after every paper. I'm not really good in reading and memorizing hundreds of lecture slides, like my high school biology test, mostly it didn't go well, and this exam, I've got laws and ethics, sustainability and engineering's principle to be bombed into this piece of brain of mine. 

But alhamdulillah, I'm doing my best and I know He will help me.

i need prayer and your encouragement. not pressure. thanks.

most of the time answering my paper. :(

Illaliqa'. Wassalam.

Grace Which We Forgot

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds, 

and Peace and Prayer upon the Final Prophet and Messenger, Muhammad PBUH.

('Abdullah Yusuf 'Ali)

In the midst of busy, distracted by assignments, pressure by projects,

We will be appreciate towards the things God gave us once or multiple times before,

The grace of leisure, free time.

We used to have all those times, but only few of us fully grasp the essence of times,
Exploit the times to the fullest, utilized it for utmost advantage, do things we really need to do,
Yet most people end up wasting it, just fooling around with it.

Certain people maybe need the times for several different purposes,
Resting, relaxing and perhaps studying for final, probably watching korean drama,
And if we asked ourselves, how much have we spare the leisure times for the sake of Allah?
Ouch, ouch and ouch.

For the moment, I really need the times to study,
Projects have taken quite the damage towards my leisure times,
And now, alhamdulillah, studying for finals is a bit fruitful,
Just a bit, it was nowhere near to the blossom of a big tree,
But I'm getting there, hopefully still got time for finals in april,
Insya-Allah, first class,
Pray for me and you and everyone, pretty please. :)

The one who said is nearer to the one who hear.

Good luck everyone sitting exams and exam-to-be,
All is well, May Allah be with you.
All the best to your medical exams. :D

thanks for your prayer in advance. jyeah!

The knowledge we earned up till now supposedly made us more humble to God and human being, despite whatever background you do possessed.

stop procastinating and start doing something.

Illaliqa'. Wassalam alaikum.

New term, new friends, new atmosphere, new challenges. Don't give up just yet.

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

All praise to Him, the Supreme Ruler of the world. And Salawah upon Prophet Muhammad PBUH.

Alhamdulillah, it's been a month since I landed myself back in London. Still this heart lingering for the souls in Malaysia, and the atmosphere. I myself reluctant to go back here, however, the fight must go on.

Year 3, final year for my bachelor engineering course, a year where you will busy with hectic dissertation or final year project. The subjects are getting tougher and tougher and the assignments are like having a bullet in your head. Ah, nevermind, my head is bulletproof. Haha. I will survive somehow. Insya-Allah.

This year, I stayed with new friends of mine, whom my former malaysian classmates, in the same hall, Galbraith Hall. Do request for address if you need to send me gifts. :p

We cooked, chatted, and helped each others out and spent very good quality time together. I will appreciate and commemorate this year that Allah bestowed upon me despite the challenges that come.

An evening at Greenwich. :)

'may Allah grant these awesome people everlasting loves and happiness and I pray for the best and hidayah upon these great souls.'

Two of my friends are staying outside at the moment, and sometimes I wish to turn back the time to appreciate those who help me those years. Quarelling, laughing and covering each others back was a good memories. Ah, people come and go. I only can pray for the best to both of them.

Sometimes I feel at lost. Asking myself, what are the purposes I came back here after few months of summer holiday. When I'm at the edge of line, I pray to Allah, to make my heart firm, after those tests, backstabbing, treacherous, and fight, so that I won't let myself indulge in darkness. 

A few days ago, somebody committed suicide by jumping from a building in Brunel University. The person, a biomedical student, was reported suffering unbearable stress and decided to jump off 7th floor of Bishop complex. How that reminded us, that keeping in line with The Creator is the best way to handle emotions. You can read the news here. 

People Committed Suicide in Brunel University

I would like to ask you guys to thank Allah for the lifes we've given for today. We might not be able to wake up tomorrow, so be grateful for those breath we inhaled.

Don't give up yet, you might encounter a new treasure ahead. :)

And remember to enjoy your life. So, that you won't regret it.

Illaliqa'. Wassalam. May Allah bless you all. :)

Life Here

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

All praise to Him, the splendid Ruler of the world, and salawah upon Prophet Muhammad (PBUH).

I am man, who fancy nothing about cooking, but in order to survive, and saving as well, I try my best to satisfy the needs of my little tummy. Here, at Brunel University, halal food is a rare provision. Burgers and hot dog are the main thing we, the muslims can eat. A few vegetarian foods also are served. I never thought that to find halal food is this hard.

Despite the hardship of getting food on campus, alhamdulillah, I can get the raw ingredients from tesco and halal meat groceries in Uxbridge, a 30-45 minutes journey walk from Brunel. As my lecture schedule is getting pack day by day, I'm unable to go out that frequent. Though i'm not a good cooker, i'm learning, from friends and 'hentam koromo' skills, somehow it worked. :)

I know, i've posted quite a lot of picture, here and there. I know that some people might feel uneasy with me having fun over here. If you are one of them, please ask me to hide it from you, or you can just untick the notification of me on the fb. I don't want to hurt anybody, it's just I want tell my concern family and friends, that I'm doing fine over here, not to promote and boasting my whereabout.

I missed my mom a lot. Somehow, i flashback my time at home back then, when i peaked at praying room in my house, i always saw my mom, in telekung, sujud to Him, for quite a long time. She prayed and prayed for our family's bless, hoping the best for her children. I want to make her proud, I want her to know that, her sacrifice is worthy, and I will be a good and obedient son. Insya-Allah.

"O Allah, for you I left my family, and friends. For you I asked for guidance and protection for them. Please shower your unlimited bless upon these important people of mine, as I love and care them a lot. Surely, indeed you are the Most Powerful and Greatness."

It's rare to hear adhan over here. When I heard one, my heart feel at ease, despite the burden I carried, despite the fun i'm having, but my tears can't stop flowing. Allah, how i miss those moment in Malaysia.

Illaliqa'. Wassalam.

Dedikasi Perkenalan 2 Tahun Bersamamu TDPUK5th

Assalamualaikum, dengan nama Allah, yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Penyayang,
Segala Puji bagi Allah, Tuhan Sekalian Alam, junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.


Aku masih ingat lagi, kereta aku naiki, meluncur laju, melepasi pondok guard, melepasi pintu gerbang "Kolej Mara Kuala Nerang"
Ianya seakan2 berlaku semalam, ketika aku pertama kali tiba di Kedah, tempat yang kurang maju, jika mahu dibandingkan dengan tempat aku,
Jantungku berdegup kencang, saat pertama kali menjejakkan kaki ke dewan besar itu, memakai baju kemeja putih, seluar hitam, membawa fail2 dan borang2 surat tawaran,
Tekad mendaftar setelah puas membuat keputusan, setelah kecewa dengan tawaran dalam negeri, haus dengan harapan2 yang tidak dikotakan,
Diri ini sanggup mengambil risiko di negeri orang, meninggalkan kampung halaman demi dahagakan ilmu,
kerana aku tahu, setiap kejayaan itu mesti ada pengorbanan, dan menuntut ilmu itu juga satu bentuk jihad. :)

Aku melihat bakal rakan2ku, ada yang menangis, ada yang gembira, penuh dengan berbagai2 mimik masing2,
Aku genggam erat tangan ibu bapaku, ku kucup pipi mereka, terdengar kalimah2 mereka " belajar rajin2 tau",
Kereta mereka pergi, air mataku bagai meminta izin ingin keluar, aku cepat2 kesat, takot2 ade member yang nampak,
Yelah, 6 bulan puas di kota sendiri, kini di rantau orang, sape tak berat hati kan? tapi aku gagahkan jua,
Aku mula berkenalan, dengan orang2 hebat, dari merata tempat, ada dari pantai timur, ada dari selatan, ada dari sbp, mrsm, smka dan smk,
Dalam diam, aku tanamkan azam, aku ingin berjaya, aku ingin bangkit, aku pemegang amanah, amanah ibu bapa mesti aku tunaikan,
kerana aku tahu, amanah itu lebih berat daripada alam ini dan seluruh isinya.

Aku masih ingat, kami selalu bersama2, lepak sama2 main game sama, sebab bilangan kami kecil, kalau nak dibandingkan dengan seluruh penduduk konerang tu,
oh ye, kami pernah masuk sukan antara program, buat team futsal, rugby, volleyball, semuanya hebat2 belaka, macam pemain international dah,
kami dapatkan mata demi mata, kami sematkan dalam diri, kerjasama itu penting, bukan hanya kemenangan, kami strive together towards victory,
walaupon kalah, penat bermandi peluh, tapi kami tetap happy, kami tetap cool,
sebab kami tahu, ikatan kami bertambah erat, ukhuwah antara rakan2 yang kami bina bagaikan kubu tidak ditembus,
kerana kami tahu, "seorang mukmin terhadap mukmin (lain), bagaikan satu bangunan, saling menguatkan antara satu sama lain" (Bukhari dan Muslim)

Masih segar lagi di ingatanku, kami berjalan bersama2 ke masjid, rutin wajib solat jumaat,
pakai baju melayu, bersamping, takot kena marah dengan cikgu hanafi, 
takot kena hambat balik asrama tukar baju,
sebelum sampai kami singgah cendol dulu, sedapnye yang amat,
kadang2 pergi ke pekan, nak cari oblong, nak cari pisang goreng, wah, terliur la pulak, haha,
teringat juga pasal science fair kita, masing2 bertungkus-lumus perah idea,
dengan kreativiti masing2, setiap group produce booth cantik gile kot,
dahla depan2 pintu masuk dewan, tutup habis booth student lain,
bila menang, dapat hamper makanan, kami kongsi, melantak sama2,
sebab itulah, apa yang Allah firmankan "Nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah kamu dustakan?" (ar-Rahman)

Aku tak lupa, time kelas dulu, banyak insiden menarik,
terutamanya kelas komputer, memang terbaeklah,
dah nama kelas komputer, belajar programming lah, tahap gradient ketiduran persaat tu memang outstandingly increase macam gunung everest,
tapi ade beberapa ketika, ayat2 nasihat seperti "marry among yourself", "fakoff" terpancul keluar,
buat kami segar bugar, terjaga dari lena yang asyik, mata memandang tepat ke arah guru kami,
"biar betul madam ni?" kami fikir, memang dahsyatlah kelas haritu, belajar nilai2 kemanusiaan,
tapi kami tak kisah, kami respect guru kami, sebab kami tahu guru itu ibarat lilin, yang membakar diri demi menerangi jalan orang lain.

Masih ingat tak kita, selalu main game sama2, PES 2010 mesti wajib ade dalam laptop masing2, pastu beli controller dua tiga pasang, nak buktikan sape hebat, sape noob,
ade orang tu siap nak buat tournament lagi, sampai sekarang takde habuk ape, sembang je lebih noh,
ade juga yang sanggup pergi blok akademik, kol 2-3 pagi, pandai avoid pak guard,
sebab nak tengok live streaming bola punya pasal, tengok nyorok2, tapi sengalnya, bila gol jerit tak ingat dunia,
selalunya kami suka gurau2, kutuk sesama sendiri, buli2 manja,
kadang2 ade yang makan dalam, bila orang serius, dia main2, macam nak makan pelempang je kan?
tapi kami saling memaafi, sebab Rasulullah kan suka pada orang yang memaafkan bila mempunyai kekuatan,
teringat lagi aku, bila abis sem, semua peluk2 dan salam2 sebab dah nak balik dah, ade yang nangis2 tu, macam la orang lain tak nampak, tapi takpe, sebab aku pun sebak gak time tu, hehe,
sebab aku tahu, kami semua sayang rakan2 kami, sebab kami ingat,
Rasulullah berpesan "tidak sempurna iman seseorang itu, selagi dia tidak mengasihi saudaranya sebagaimana ia mengasihi dirinya sendiri." (Bukhari dan Muslim)

Yang paling masyuk, time graduation, semua orang happy bajet dah graduate dah, padahal final exam belum lagi, happy dulu baru torture,
buat kat hotel holiday villa, makanan sangat sedap, alhamdulillah, berbaloi2,
semua rakan2 pakai macam nak kahwin, padahal belanja makan pun parents dan mara tanggung lagi,
tapi seriously, semua hensem2 cantik2, agak2 boleh masuk calon isteri tak? haha,
ramai kameraman kat situ, aku tak nak tangkap gambar, sebab aku nak jaga ikhtilat laki perempuan, takut2 jadi lebih2, nanti mengundang kemurkaan Allah,
aku ni bukan alim sangat, tapi batas2 agama itu perlu, aku cuma harap rakan2 aku faham,
biarlah pada pandangan mereka, aku tak hensem, tak suka tangkap gambar, lagipun takde sapa nak tangkap gambar dengan aku kan? :)
kerana aku tahu, biar aku macho di langit Ilahi, biar malaikat terkejar2 mendengar namaku drpd setakat hensem di bumi ini,
dan aku tahu, mujahadah itu pahit, syurga itu manis. :D

Tersemat dalam ingatanku, ketika daftar di kampus masing2, BMI, IPROM, MICET,
tiga tempat berlainan, dek kerana sistem unikl dan mara,
Bagai benua lain planet, kami berpisah demi mengejar masa hadapan,
walaupun ada yang tak dapat apa yang diminta, kami redha, kami pasrah, dengan ketentuan Ilahi,
Kami gagahkan juga, asah semangat juang, demi kejayaan, demi harapan ibu bapa, agama dan negara,
kerana kami yakin dengan kalimah2 cinta Sang Pencipta dalam al-Quran,
"Allah tidak membebankan seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya" (2:286)
dan kami tahu, perancangan Allah itu lebih teratur, kerana Dialah yang Maha Perancang.

Walaupon tempat dan masa memisahkan kami, kami tetap cari peluang untuk bersama,
Jauh dari melaka datang ke kuala lumpur, dari gombak ke ampang,
Selalu datang Iprom, macam transit tengah2 bandar, untungla kan? tapi Iprom bukannya ade ape pun sangat, seketul bangunan je pun haa, haha
Kalau dulu ada antara kami yang selalu tengok KLCC drpd gambar je, sekarang tempat tu da macam rumah kedua dah, asyik2 singgah je, padahal tak beli apa pun, sebab duit tak ada,
Kadang2 ada member yang sanggup belanja, apa mimpi kali ni, apa hantu dah rasuk die entah,
Tapi alhamdulillah, rezeki jangan ditolak kan? terima kasih ye yang belanja burger king tu... :)

Selalunya kawan2 aku ni pergi main futsal, nak menang liga katanya, tiap2 weekend turun TTDI nak main futsal,
Dorang selalu menang, kalah jarang sekali, hebat betul, ke team lain noob gile? hahaks,
Aku kagum sangat2 dengan kehebatan kawan2 aku ni, masing2 ade kelebihan tersendiri,
walaupon kadang2 dorang tak ajak aku g melepak, malam2 aku makan sorang2, aku study sorang2, tengok movie sorang2,
Tapi aku tak kesah, berlapang dada itu salah satu adab bersaudara, aku terima mereka seadanya,
Serious aku bangga ada kawan2 macam anda2 semua ni, bukan senang nak dapat tau,
few in million, nnti kita masuk syurga sama2 eh, friends forever until jannah, marilah jadi orang yang mengasihi antara satu sama lain kerana Allah...

Appreciation Nite 2012 melakar sejarah titik pengakhiran kami,
secara official kami tamat program Transfer Degree Program di kampus masing2,
Pelbagai perasaan bercampur baur, gembira, sedih, puas, sebak,
Kami gather untuk julung2 kalinya,
ada yang buat persembahan, ada yang makan, makanan banyak sangat2, sampai tak habis,
Malam itu, aku melihat kepuasan dalam diri masing2, keteguhan persahabatan kami selama dua tahun ini,
Penuh suka dan duka, pahit manis, baik dan buruk, kami terima kekuatan dan kelemahan masing2,
Seperti adik-beradik, 21 orang ini aku doakan agar sentiasa gembira dan berjaya dalam bidang yang diceburi,
moga diberi kekuatan otromen supaya dapat membolosi tembok2 penghalang raksasa gorgon,
kerana aku yakin 21 orang bertuah ini, akan membuka sayap masing2,
terbang megah di bumi Allah, mendaulatkan Islam tercinta.

uk's girls

uk's boys

O my humble friends, thank you for your guidance in these 2 years, our sweet bitter memories will always be embedded in my small heart. thanks for everything. May Allah bless each of your soul... :)

jom kasih mengasihi... heheee... :)

Illaliqa'. Wassalam.
p/s: aku takleh sambung lagi, rasa nak nangis je. ;)