Buat Si A

Assalamualaikum, dengan nama Allah, yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang,

Segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan sekalian alam, selawat kepada junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad SAW.

Kepada A,

Sesungguhnya apa yang saya sampaikan ini sudah lama terbuku di hati ini, dan saya harap anda membacanya dengan hati sentiasa berdoa kepada Allah.

A,

Jika saya katakan anda tidak cantik, maka saya telah menipu diri anda, dan juga seluruh dunia. Kerana andalah wanita paling cantik & tinggi budi pekerti pernah saya temui. Dan jika saya katakan saya tiada perasaan kepada anda walau secebis zarah, maka saya telah menipu diri sendiri, anda dan juga seluruh cakerawala. Kerana diri ini tidak dapat menahan pesona persismu dan hati ini hanya mampu menyimpan perasaan dan sanggup berdiam seribu bahasa daripada meluahkannya kepadamu.

A,

Namamu sering menjadi bual bicaraku bersama Tuhanku. Nama yang senantiasa dibaca dalam doaku, agar sentiasa diberi pelindung dan sentiasa berada dalam rahmat-Nya. Hanya Allah yang tahu bagaimana berombak hati ini jika perihal dirimu dapatku tahu.

Wahai A,

Kerana kecantikanmu, agamamu, kasih-sayang pada keluarga dan sahabatmu, imanmu terhadap Tuhanmu dan Rasul-Nya, saya tertarik kepada diri anda yg seindah bidadari terindah bak mawar berduri. Kerana kemuliaanmu, aku menjadi kecut, gentar, takut untuk menyampaikan hasratku kepadamu. Aku hanyalah insan biasa, hina dan kedana. Tidak layak untuk memiliki dirimu yang seperti intan permata di dalam bekas kaca. Aku hanyalah seperti pengemis jalanan yang melihat ke dalam bekas kaca itu.

A,

Sementara ini, aku dapat doakan yang terbaik buat dirimu dan kerabatmu. Semoga perasaan ini dapat menjadi penyunting semangat untuk lebih mendekatkan diri kepada Sang Pencipta. Aku juga doakan agar dikau berjaya dunia dan akhirat serta menjadi insan, umat, hamba, ibu dan isteri yang dirahmati Allah. Semoga kita dapat bertemu di lain waktu. Insya-Allah. Illaliqa'. Wassalam.

Sin Cera,

SH,

10/03/14,

South Bay, Scarborough,

North Yorkshire, England.

"One of the greatest test of faith is when things didn't turn out the way you wished for, but you still believe in His plan and say alhamdulillah."

P/s: Harap kepada sesiapa yang namanya bermula daripada A, seperti Athirah, Aqilah dan sebagainya, atau Aiman, Amirul mohon jangan terpanggil.

Pre-Spring 2014: Inspiring Much Portsmouth & Brighton

Assalamualaikum, in the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious the Most Merciful,

All praise to Him, the Supreme Ruler of the World, and Salawah upon the Last Messenger Muhammad PBUH.

I went to Portsmouth, south of England, to visit a company which involved in navy army, BAE system. Despite gained a lot of useful knowledge and experiences, I got new friends as well. Yeay. The Portsmouth harbour was beautiful and the outlet sells a lot of clothing. I'm sure will come here again. Hehe.

The next day, I decided to go to Brighton. The plan was last minute and I went alone. As soon as I got to the beach I lay down myself, admiring the scenery that unfolds before me. It's been a while since I last saw beach and I've been hoping to see one, thank Allah for giving me this rare opportunity a success. Alhamdulillah. I prayed on the pebble beach, and feeling gratitude to Allah for this splendid moment. The beach was very cold but the sun was very bright as well, mixing the air with warm winter blowing through my face. I laid myself on my back, staring to the sea, beach and sky, hardly imagine my last minute plan was awesome. Despite the chill winter weather, I spent about 2 hours for the beautiful view. Alhamdulillah.

On the 2 hours journey back to London, I met this old woman, Jane. She is 70 years old and still studying. She's doing her pHd on Shakespeare, wrote an introduction of 15000 words and this gave me a lot of insight. Study never has age limit! She told me that she can't spend her time without doing anything. She always need to do something or else she'll get bored. She went swimming, attending lectures and loves keeping her house tidy. She went to Brighton to visit her daughter. She rarely cooked but she used to know how to make Nasi Goreng. Yeah, she even said nasi goreng in Malay. We exchanged recipe on how to make nasi goreng and I share to her the locations of several Malaysian restaurant in Paddington and Chinatown. For 2 hours, I felt the conversation was inspiring and I never got bored. She sparked something inside me, motivate me to become better, filling my time wisely. She offered me a slice of cake which I finished it as I was very hungry (I only fill my tummy with oreos for lunch). I hope to see her again. Insya-Allah. May Allah bless her and guide her towards the Truth.

Jane and her shakespeare notes. She never knew anything about rice cooker, so I suggest her one.

'Life is never too old to learn something new eh?'

Later that night, I went to Faizal Tahir's performance, a charitable event for Syria, as a persuasion from syafiq, my awesome flatmate. It was good and met few of my friends. Also alhamdulillah for this opportunity.

I think that was all my weekend was well spent. Awesome friends, great moments and irreplacable blessing from Allah. Syukur. How was yours?

Illaliqa'. Wassalam. :)

Grace Which We Forgot

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds, 

and Peace and Prayer upon the Final Prophet and Messenger, Muhammad PBUH.

('Abdullah Yusuf 'Ali)

In the midst of busy, distracted by assignments, pressure by projects,

We will be appreciate towards the things God gave us once or multiple times before,

The grace of leisure, free time.

We used to have all those times, but only few of us fully grasp the essence of times,
Exploit the times to the fullest, utilized it for utmost advantage, do things we really need to do,
Yet most people end up wasting it, just fooling around with it.

Certain people maybe need the times for several different purposes,
Resting, relaxing and perhaps studying for final, probably watching korean drama,
And if we asked ourselves, how much have we spare the leisure times for the sake of Allah?
Ouch, ouch and ouch.

For the moment, I really need the times to study,
Projects have taken quite the damage towards my leisure times,
And now, alhamdulillah, studying for finals is a bit fruitful,
Just a bit, it was nowhere near to the blossom of a big tree,
But I'm getting there, hopefully still got time for finals in april,
Insya-Allah, first class,
Pray for me and you and everyone, pretty please. :)

The one who said is nearer to the one who hear.

Good luck everyone sitting exams and exam-to-be,
All is well, May Allah be with you.
All the best to your medical exams. :D

thanks for your prayer in advance. jyeah!

The knowledge we earned up till now supposedly made us more humble to God and human being, despite whatever background you do possessed.

stop procastinating and start doing something.

Illaliqa'. Wassalam alaikum.

Travelog Winter 2013: Reise Nach Deutschland, Tschechien Republik, Österreich, Schweiz

Assalamualaikum, In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

All praise to Him, the Supreme Ruler of the world, and salawah upon Prophet Muhammad PBUH.

Alhamdulillah, I still have the time to write something, hopefully for the greater good. I went away, last winter break, to few places by which you guys can possibly know through my facebook pages. Ah, spoil the post. Germany, Czech Republic, Austria & Switzerland. A lot of journey with awesome high school friend, Suhatman aka the tour guide. He studies in Aalen, germany, that's why he is capable of the communication and transport system around germany. Lucky me.

Alte oper night and day.

Landed at frankfurt, it was a nice place for a city life. We met our senior during high school, Aizet Ilyas, whom a great motivator man. We chat until late night and have a few insight exchanged. Moving up to Berlin the place where world war 2 exploded and centered. Berlin composed of many historical places, from jewish memorial place, the Berlin wall where east and west berlin were divided as a result of hitler fall, Charlottenburg Palace, Charlie checkpoint and others. I like the christmas market and the happening events there.

 Berlin wall.

 Charlottenburg Palace

Then, we crossed the border to Prague, the capital city of Czech Republic. Subhanallah, the place was very beautiful and the buildings were designed as bohemian style, the holy roman empire. I fall in love of the sight on top of hill, where you can view the whole city and spend the rest of the day amazed of the beauty of the world God gave us to. And the people are nice and the girls are very pretty too. Ma, can I bring one home? :p

Prague, Czech Republic

From on top of the hill.

After that, we went to munich. On the way to Allianze Arena, I met my old college classmate, Arif Chan and his usrah-mate. It was nice to meet somewhere out of UK as we also barely talk to each other, unless we met. Thank Allah for this moment. The next day, we went to Neuschwanstein castle. The journey was 3 hours long from munich and so many chinese were on sight. Maybe they like the castle as well. The castle itself was magnificent and beautiful. Masya-Allah. The road towards the top was closed because of the icy slippery route, but we climbed up the fence and got to walk a great and awesome view journey. Masya-Allah. On the way back, we met our high school junior, Nelissa with her friends, all the way from Canada. It was nice to meet them. :)

Neuschwanstein Castle

The road not taken. (The one we climbed the fence)

BMW Welt, Munich

We continue our journey the next day to Salzburg, Austria. We climbed to the top of the castle and got a very good view. very nice. And we have our night back in Suhatman's place, Aalen. There, I met, Azwan, Chop, Ken, Abiman and Choka. We played board games for two nights and had a very great fun together. (ok, macam ayat budak sekolah rendah buat karangan. Haha. Well, who cares anyway, nobody is going to read this blog btw).

Salzburg from the top of the hohensalzburg castle.

My final destination was Schaffhausen, Swiss. There, where the Rheinfall is located, the biggest waterfall in europe. Though I think it's small, but the view was nice. I'm glad I was given this opportunity to see it. Alhamdulillah.

Rheinfall, Schaffhausen.

Overall, this trip was the best trip I've ever been. The food wasn't that hard to find and the price is worth it. I met with a lot of acquaintances and obtained wonderful, priceless experiences. With good companion which I really grateful having of, and can withstand my demeanor which few can comprehend. Thank you very much, Suhatman, for guiding me throughout the journey. It was really fun. And Aalen friends, the food was nice, and I'm really can't thank you guys enough. May Allah bless you guys. :)

Enjoy the video I made. :D

"O Lord, give me baraqah on every single trip I spent, for that I gained wisdom not normally anyone get. I pray to you to pour down the blessings to those I met, so that our met can make us closer to You and will not awaken Your anger. Please give me the chance to seek knowledge which can make me deepen my heart and feelings upon You. For You are the greatest of all, for You we came and return."

"It is He who has made the earth subservient to you. You walk through its vast valleys and eat of its sustenance. Before Him you will all be resurrected."

[67:15]

Thank you for your time to read. I appreciate it.

Illaliqa'. Wassalam

Healing wound

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

All praise to Him, the Creator of this beautiful world, and Salawah upon the Last Prophet Muhammad PBUH.

How do we want the wound to heal, if we don't stop the bleeding?

Same with human,

How do we want to improve ourselves, if we don't stop the sinning?

Think and ponder. Clock's ticking. Our lives are short, but more than enough.

Why? Because He created us. He knows what we don't.

get up this instance. you'll know how awesome you'll be when you are closer to The Creator. Away from the smelly sins.

Illaliqa. Wassalam.

Mati itu pasti.

Assalamualaikum, dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah dan Maha Penyayang.

Segala puji bagu Allah. Dan salawat ke atas junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad SAW.

Sesungguhnya kematian itu datang tak mengira umur. Adakah amalan kita sudah cukup untuk menghadap Yang Esa?

"Hei orang muda! Jangan ingat matimu tua. Kelak lalai dibuai nikmat dunia.

Hei orang tua! Jangan fikir kau tak mati2. Umur panjang itu satu ujian yang sangat berat."

Perginya seseorang dalam hidup kita itu juga satu peringatan buat kita.

Impianku mahu syahid. Biarlah jika pemergianku tidak diiringi beratus2 manusia, asalkan yang mengiringiku ke liang lahad ialah seribu malaikat.

Illaliqa'. Wassalam.

New term, new friends, new atmosphere, new challenges. Don't give up just yet.

Assalamualaikum, in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

All praise to Him, the Supreme Ruler of the world. And Salawah upon Prophet Muhammad PBUH.

Alhamdulillah, it's been a month since I landed myself back in London. Still this heart lingering for the souls in Malaysia, and the atmosphere. I myself reluctant to go back here, however, the fight must go on.

Year 3, final year for my bachelor engineering course, a year where you will busy with hectic dissertation or final year project. The subjects are getting tougher and tougher and the assignments are like having a bullet in your head. Ah, nevermind, my head is bulletproof. Haha. I will survive somehow. Insya-Allah.

This year, I stayed with new friends of mine, whom my former malaysian classmates, in the same hall, Galbraith Hall. Do request for address if you need to send me gifts. :p

We cooked, chatted, and helped each others out and spent very good quality time together. I will appreciate and commemorate this year that Allah bestowed upon me despite the challenges that come.

An evening at Greenwich. :)

'may Allah grant these awesome people everlasting loves and happiness and I pray for the best and hidayah upon these great souls.'

Two of my friends are staying outside at the moment, and sometimes I wish to turn back the time to appreciate those who help me those years. Quarelling, laughing and covering each others back was a good memories. Ah, people come and go. I only can pray for the best to both of them.

Sometimes I feel at lost. Asking myself, what are the purposes I came back here after few months of summer holiday. When I'm at the edge of line, I pray to Allah, to make my heart firm, after those tests, backstabbing, treacherous, and fight, so that I won't let myself indulge in darkness. 

A few days ago, somebody committed suicide by jumping from a building in Brunel University. The person, a biomedical student, was reported suffering unbearable stress and decided to jump off 7th floor of Bishop complex. How that reminded us, that keeping in line with The Creator is the best way to handle emotions. You can read the news here. 

People Committed Suicide in Brunel University

I would like to ask you guys to thank Allah for the lifes we've given for today. We might not be able to wake up tomorrow, so be grateful for those breath we inhaled.

Don't give up yet, you might encounter a new treasure ahead. :)

And remember to enjoy your life. So, that you won't regret it.

Illaliqa'. Wassalam. May Allah bless you all. :)